Conflicted

I'm having a conflicted life these days. Some days are great - I'm full of pep and excitement and am loving my new business ventures and spending time with the kids. And then other days I feel so completely and utterly lost that I sit and wonder what am I suppose to be doing because I don't feel like I'm really fulfilling some parts of my life purpose and it's scaring me.

I have been following a particular blog for several months that I discovered through another blog that I still follow and this particular blog that I was introduced to has been on hiatus for a few months now and I've been missing it. So today I did some 'google surfing' and searching and found the writer of this blog has embarked on a new venture and I'm thrilled to read her new blog and business site! Finally.

This woman is a clairvoyant. I've always believed in a sixth sense and Clarivoyance and while I was reading her blog and site I just feel like my insides are quivering from reading the testimonials and the insights she's shared on her blog because it feels natural to me....sort of like something you've been looking for and when you finally find it you're so excited and full of adrenaline it's hard to control - does that make sense?

Damnit I sound like a looney bird. I'm in this emotional space tonight.

Anyway - lately I've been feeling completely and totally lost in life. And I wonder if finally finding this site is a way to prompt me to really start searching out what my purpose is...do you ever feel like you're just floating along with life because there's nothing else to do but just 'go with it?' What happened to choice and purpose in decisions...?

And after sitting on this post for a while I'm sure I'll end up deleting it because I honestly don't think I've made a lick of sense and feel even more conflicted trying to verbalize (textualize???) how I'm feeling - UGH! HELP!

What do you think of having a clairvoyant or psychic reading? I've never done something like that and although it completely intrigues me, it terrifies me at the same time because it's really a lot of 'unknowns' and what do you do with the information that you're given? Again I say, UGH! HELP!